river adventures mixed with homesickness

well..this weekend was an adventure! it started off riding to Puto with 8 people crammed in the back of a 30yr old pick up, smaller than a S-10...trying to catch a bus to Tena, to go rafting..luckily, we caught the last bus leaving for Tena, which was packed full of people, but thankfully, all of us were able to get seats for the very bumpy 2 and a half hour ride...
it was a fine ride...when we got to Tena, we got a Taxi to our hostal, which was suprisingly nice, picture is to the right...it was 4 dollars a night, which included breakfast and hot showers :) it brought me back to my europe travelling days...it was nice. I really dont like travelling in large groups, bc it just makes situations 100% more complicated than they need to be..but i just shut up and tried to go with the flow..we ate at a bearable restuarant..then went off to bed for an aventure the next morning!
we were off on our 2 trucks at around 9am..2 girls from holland were able to join us, which was nice bc i really enjoyed their company (they are actually doing volunteer work in the jungle, which they have to walk an hour to get to their village!)
when we got to the dropping off point...we got all our gear on: helmets, wet suit like coats, and life jackets with crotch straps :)...it was nice to feel safe...once we had our safety speech by our leader, in spanish...we were off! In our boat, there were 8 people including the leader...it was nice...our rapids were class 3, so they werent that bad...but good enough for some adventure..the trip lasted pretty much all day...but it didnt seem like it, time went by nicely becuase there were a few stops along the way and between rapids, the leaders liked to push everyone in the river...it was fun though.
the BEST part was when he was letting people sit on the very front point of the raft and hang on to only the raft when we went through the rapids..that was so awesome! it was just you and the water...and you hanging on for your life! when you saw that you were coming up on a huge rapid..you knew you were in for a ride! it was truly amazing..and if i wouldnt have done that, the trip wouldnt have been as nice!
when we got back to our hostal...some of us girls needed to get back to shell, so we left that night..so im glad that im back safely...and ready for another week...kinda.
right now i have been sick with diarreah for over a week now, ive been hoping that it will just go away...but its getting a lot worse, and i need to walk over to the dr.s house and get some meds! i cant afford to miss another day of school!

well honeslty, i am really homesick and lonely here...it has hit me at kind of an awkward time in my trip...but it has hit me..the crying and everything...which is weird bc its hittinge me at a time where i need to make my desicion about whether to stay another year or not...which needs to be made THIS WEEK....its the hardest desicion ive ever had to make it seems and i really hate it! but i guess i should get used to it?! making desicions and all...

so today i am "spring cleaning" all of my cabinets out of termits and the wood that they love to leave behind...so im trying to organize my cabinets ...make life a little simpler/better for the next person that will live here...

hope all is going well...be thankful for your family if they are close to you!